Clay and I put it together last night and ordered them! Costco has the best deal -$14.99 for 50 of them and they have the cutest designs.

Being pregnant gives me terrible awful dreams. I'm constantly waking up, crying, panicking and terrified that something terrible had happened to Clay or Jack. It's affecting my ability to get more than 5 hours of sleep a night. Clayton jokes that I still get more sleep than he does - which is true, but I can't function on 5 hours of sleep when I'm NOT pregnant. . .Being pregnant I need like...12 hours of sleep a night. Arg.

Last night I had a dream that Clay, Jack and I were on a plane and it couldn't get up high enough in the air. So, we were hitting the tops of cars and power lines and the flight attendant was driving the plane from the back. At some point there was a floating car, it looked like someone was dragging it by the back wheels and then threw it over the edge. Magically I was there helping get the car and as we pulled it out (we being myself and my coworkers...) Clay was dead in the driver's seat. I woke up shaking and called Clay, who of course was on his way to work in the 8 inches of snow we've gotten so he couldn't answer the phone so I proceeded to freak out and thing the worst. Needless to say, I've been up since 4:30.

We find out the gender of the little one in my belly on December 21st. I can't wait. Hopefully this one is a girl so I never have to be pregnant again. This pregnancy has been such a different experience from Jack. With Jack I was starving all of the time, I gained close to 30 pounds, I slept perfectly until I was 30 weeks, thew up only once, napped all of the time...With this one I can't sleep, I can't nap with a toddler, I'm never hungry, I've lost 16 pounds, etc and so on. I've also gotten terrible headaches that last for days.

Thank goodness it's Friday. Hope all is well!

I just spent the past 15 minutes reading through my old life, which I realize doesn't sound like long but in mom time is a long time. I'm a mom! Weird. Jack is a year old, well, almost a year and a half. And we are expecting another!

Lately I've felt a need to express myself through writing, which I probably don't have time for - but I am going to make a huge effort to keep this updated.

I started a blog, which seems silly - but I did. More for family and friends that don't care to read or know about my true feelings or thoughts. www.thelowderfamily.blogspot.com (I think)

I don't even know anyone on here anymore. I haven't been involved in so long. If anyone is out there - how are you?!

I should probably go clean and get ready for work while Jack naps.

We got an ultrasound today! I am 12 weeks 3 days. My due date is September 11th. Everything looks great! We could already see ten fingers and toes! We got an early screening done, but really it was just to see the baby. I guess it doesn't hurt to see if our baby will have downs, or other geneticly related disorders. We should know within a week.

The loan officer on our house is freaking stupid! She didn't attempt to verify my employment until yesterday and we are supposed to sign tomorrow-which isn't going to happen how because the employment verification takes 72 hours. I'm going to be real upset if we can't close by Friday. Ugh.

Well, I've been up since 7:30am and it's now 12:00am. Ew. Goodnight!

My foot leg is asleep, and it's really annoying.
I've been up since 9:15am with the puppy.
Clay doesn't believe me, but I think I can feel the baby move.
I have to go get ready for work-LAME.

So, I had my first appointment on the 12th of January. My doctor looks like a frog, and is really short-but he's delivered a lot of babies and specializes in high risk pregnancy-so I feel safe. I'm 7 weeks 4 days pregnant, and I'm just very exhausted all of the freaking time. I have my next appointment on February 12th. No belly yet, but I feel like all I do is eat. If I let myself get hungry I get really super nauseous and it's gross.

Clayton and I are doing well, we've been house hunting for the past week and have a meeting with the Realtor again tomorrow morning to try to find a home. Wish us luck.

My mum and I are getting along better-she's excited to be a nana. My dad is still an asshole, but he really wants us to mover over by them, so the baby can have grandparents. I told them we couldn't afford it, but they should consider moving to where we are. . .It's a struggle.

Other than that I don't have anything to report. I'm tired and going to bed. <3

That after 10 months....

Clayton and I are finally...

PREGNANT! :D


I've been feeling all gross for the past week or so, and I thought it was just because of my pulling an all nighter the day my god daughter was born...but no. I'm finally pregnant. Hooray!